Jenny, I empathize with your sad feelings. There may be a genetic component to your milk issue. When Patrick was a baby and being nursed by our mother, he failed to gain weight. Mother took him to the doctor; he had suck-marks on his arms. The doctor told Mother that she was starving Patrick due to low butterfat in her milk supply. He was put on formula that Mother made according to a recipe. Patrick thrived. For subsequent children, Mother breast-fed only in the early days to give the babies her imunizing colostrum that is produced during the first post-partum week. I hope that you are successful in your milk production efforts.